I have watched mothers playing with their children, wondering why my mother left me all alone in this cold and unforgiving world. I have watched fathers teach their sons how to ride bikes, wondering who is gonna teach me how to be a man.

I have heard people talk about mother's love being unconditional, a love that knows no limit, a love that does not judge nor discriminate, a love that's forever. I wondered what such love would feel like, would it be warm? Would it be nurturing? Would it be kind? Would it encourage me when I'm on the brink of giving up? I spent days pondering about what that would be like and yet I still have no clue.

My heart is so cold and full of sadness, my mind holds memories of the painful life I have led. Where is a mother's love to make the pain go away? Where is a father's guidance to make sense of this cruel and confusing world? I am but a restless lonely soul looking for love and guidance, but there is none who can offer me such, for those who brought me into this world have left me here all alone to strive for myself, I truly am a lonely soul.