I love you...

i wanted to say these words not because i meant them because i am actually not sure what they mean but more because it has been so long since i have said them to anyone...

even now the words sound wrong coming off my lips but i needed to say it none the less because on some level i was sure if i didn't say it now that i would soon forget how to say it at all...

and at the time i know it wasn't true but the will to add truth to these words is very real and honest because i do very much want to love you...

i just hope that it is within my power to actually love you... and mean it...