There is something inexplicable delicious about having your cigarette lit by a man Crushed in the doorway next to the Chinese restaurant getting out of the wind your hands around his hands protecting the flare of a match in a way you've been doing this all night across a table over stir-fried udon and saki and British accents (yours real, his not) something about the moment your face flicks back as the smoke seeps into your mouth and your eyes meet his eyes and it's not until later just after your lips are on his lips and the world stops moving outside that you realise you knew it would be like this from the moment that flame burst open behind two sets of hands.