The first was like honey; Sweet, lingering, Slowly, sloppily, dripping off my fingers As I realized I could no longer hold it. Even as it slipped, The sticky residue remained. I’ve washed and washed a hundred times over And still find the first one – Sticky in all tiny creases I was sure I had scrubbed.
The second – sand. I held closely to each grain, Praying I could keep them, Praying they’d magically solidify into something I could clutch; Something I could keep. The second slipped away, Grain by grain, Now there’s just the scent that I sometimes catch.
The third… is inconclusive. The third appeared solid But then quickly slipped away the second I tightened my hands around it To keep it close. 3 comes back to me the second I am fine with its absence, Until I try to grasp it – My hands left restless and searching.
But am I meant to find something to hold? Or am I meant to only have the residue, The lingering, Of all that once was, And now is, Me.