you say my name
like you know me
more than
the crevices of my body
and the pitch of my voice

though you don't know
what makes my spine curve
or the thoughts
behind the endorphins
birthmarks, moles, scars
all easy to trace with your finger
but you can't kiss
deflated pride or loose morals

I play self destruction
like an olympic sport
except my gold medal
seeps into my bone marrow
but leaves no trace
on my weathered skin

so instead you say my name
unaware of your ignorance
unaware of my inner ghosts