I built a room out of keys and locked doors for a steeple boy. Still, he shuts out the eyes of the people.
He buried his twin sister a generation ago. No one knew he killed “her” He wrecked her being with the weight of his tears He tore apart her womb and ******* with the inconsistencies in his mind.
She went willingly, quietly. She never existed for him.
Yet, he keeps her in the hazy recesses of his thoughts. Reluctantly, necessarily. A tethered reminder.
His mind is just as broken just as fickle just as full as hers. His/(her) clenched fists sentimental soul conflicted body bittersweet existence
Maybe today will be the day he is born without the mask of his sister. A coward (not a fraud) no longer.
May he speak unwaveringly even as his spirit wavers. May his chest be flat and strong May he sit wider than his mother permits May his wrists stay unmarred May his body be painted blue and his eyes (pink).
Though his flesh may be Change(able), remember it contains his heart his soul his mind, that knows and is unsure … his throat, that speaks, even as it betrays his deepness his breath, that fills his well-worn lungs his spine, that remains s despite crushing ribs t r a i g h t his blood, that flows cleanly through veins his organs, that run amid the ruin of his subsistence.
Now, his hands open with the creak of strained muscles. No longer fading, he fills this space. Showered, his arms extend into sleeves of a suit. His fingers pull pants in place His fingers secure buttons His fingers knot his tie His fingers fasten his laces and, he remembers his sister. He chips at her mortar around his heart His eyes, once covered in cypress flowers, change to lilies. He fists the correct key, using his voice, “This ain’t no sham. I am what I am”
Steeple boy, choose life. Change life. You’ll be alright.