So many tears
have swelled up inside of me,
tightening my throat.
I can't hold them all back.

I'm trying to change,
to make myself better,
but in your eyes
I'm just the same.

You think I'm not trying,
you think I don't care,
but the truth is
I cry myself to sleep.

So many tears
are streaming down my face.
Everything I do just makes things worse,
I don’t understand.

I want this sadness to go away,
to feel loved,
instead of feeling
like I'm letting you down.

I know I'm not perfect,
I don't do everything right,
but I don't need you
to rub it in my face.

So many tears,
I’m sick of crying,
of feeling like everything I do
is a failure.
These feelings,
they're not right.
I want to feel your love
lift me up when I'm down.

I want to feel your support
but all I feel is anger
and disappointment
pushing me into the darkness.

So many tears
have stained my pillow,
begging the Father
to take me home.

Countless nights
of wondering how it feels
to slowly fade away
and leave this place

I don't want this life anymore,
I don't want this pain.
I don’t want these tears.
Maybe it’s better if I'm gone....