Apr 2019
I felt so special.
I can't explain what I'm feeling.
I never felt anything like this before, darling.
You being here with me is enough to make me smile.
Weeks have passed.
Everyday is so special.
I don't want this to end.
We chatted for so long each day, yet it didn't last.
A certain day came.
Indeed you're such a fame.
You didn't talk to me.
Is it because I'm lame?
I saw you wearing a cute little sweater.
We even went home together.
I feel nothing.
I don't feel any loving.
As I walk through the streets,
Looking down at my feet.
My eyes burst into tears.
While I'm feeling too much fear.
I'm not crying because I'm not special anymore.
I am crying because it was easy for you to replace me.
Sure we did go home together.
Though no sounds were heard.
Silent as a falling feather.
I saw you.
Everything feels new.
You look happy with him.
What a nice scene turning out to be grim.
It hurts me so much.
I found a tree to punch.
My hands are bleeding.
Should I also jump out of this building?
Nah. Who am I kidding?
I can't do that. But for sure I want to end my living.
My wrist now bleeds.
No, I am not crazy. I didn't smoke ****.
It's so easy to cut my wrist.
I kept the blade inside my fist.
Yes I know it's easy to do that dear.
How about I commit suicide after I drink beer?
Not even one has ever known that I'm suffering.
Read this poem and you'll understand.
I heard my phone ringing.
It was you who was calling.
My mood changed.
But the new mood easily faded.
Oh dear I am wasted,
For you and him already dated.
And it only made my condition more complicated.
If I ever have friends I am so sorry.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I cut.
I'm sorry I want to give up.
I'm sorry I want to die.
I'm sorry I hide my emotions.
I'm sorry I want to **** myself.
I'm sorry I lie and say I'm fine.
I'm sorry I push you guys away.
I'm sorry for what I am about to do.
Please don't judge me dude.
Especially if you don't know my story.
Now I gotta go and hurry.
See you soon after I get burried.
Oh and by the way, I'm giving free McFlurry.
I can't explain what I'm feeling.
I never felt anything like this before, darling.
You being here with me is enough to make me smile.
Weeks have passed.
Everyday is so special.
I don't want this to end.
We chatted for so long each day, yet it didn't last.
A certain day came.
Indeed you're such a fame.
You didn't talk to me.
Is it because I'm lame?
I saw you wearing a cute little sweater.
We even went home together.
I feel nothing.
I don't feel any loving.
As I walk through the streets,
Looking down at my feet.
My eyes burst into tears.
While I'm feeling too much fear.
I'm not crying because I'm not special anymore.
I am crying because it was easy for you to replace me.
Sure we did go home together.
Though no sounds were heard.
Silent as a falling feather.
I saw you.
Everything feels new.
You look happy with him.
What a nice scene turning out to be grim.
It hurts me so much.
I found a tree to punch.
My hands are bleeding.
Should I also jump out of this building?
Nah. Who am I kidding?
I can't do that. But for sure I want to end my living.
My wrist now bleeds.
No, I am not crazy. I didn't smoke ****.
It's so easy to cut my wrist.
I kept the blade inside my fist.
Yes I know it's easy to do that dear.
How about I commit suicide after I drink beer?
Not even one has ever known that I'm suffering.
Read this poem and you'll understand.
I heard my phone ringing.
It was you who was calling.
My mood changed.
But the new mood easily faded.
Oh dear I am wasted,
For you and him already dated.
And it only made my condition more complicated.
If I ever have friends I am so sorry.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I cut.
I'm sorry I want to give up.
I'm sorry I want to die.
I'm sorry I hide my emotions.
I'm sorry I want to **** myself.
I'm sorry I lie and say I'm fine.
I'm sorry I push you guys away.
I'm sorry for what I am about to do.
Please don't judge me dude.
Especially if you don't know my story.
Now I gotta go and hurry.
See you soon after I get burried.
Oh and by the way, I'm giving free McFlurry.
