My brain is yelling run it's way to smart to ignore the incredible battle it's bound to endure
And whether it sits right or not I truly know I've  mentally packed & I'm emotionally ready to go...
All roads heading out don't look very promising though
My hearts created this barrier that continues to grow. It not as wise as my head, it has a whole different view
So while my brain protects me my heart is left protecting you

I'm the ref in the middle judging a fight without any rules
And without any say over who should win or who will ultimately lose
To protect myself and my sanity, this means walking away
Disappointing my heart and leaving me hurt either way
Raised to know blood is just that, and nothing else means more
But did that mean even me? I'm really not that sure
For family I'd ****, instinct wouldn't let me think twice
Would do whatever I had to, even pay the ultimate price
Shes my sister no matter what, mental illness or not. My brain has no control over how my heart was taught.
The only difference this time, what makes this so hard to see
Is how to protect her without killing me