And they loved me,
I held their hands while they cried,
brought the tissues to every period,
beat my brain for resolutions to shoddy problems,
listening day by day to a broken record,
And they loved me for it.

I hurt more and more, silent
Family not knowing what to think,
grounded for the first time in 5 years,
alone because of the love I give
and they never noticed.

I did what I do, played me
divorce, heartbreak, panic attacks,
there I was, with a kind word
And I became broken.

the sadness that was theirs was mine,
I take that burden, it grows
never stops growing, day
after day, after day, after day
and they kept being sad,
And I was always alone.

Silence, don't say a word,
I will make it worse for them
never worry about myself,
just because I have attacks,
Cut, my family was fine
And never will be the same again.

Until I changed, they never noticed
the only ones to notice were my parents
and they loved me... My friends, they did love me until I opened my mouth,
They loved me.