If you ever wanna find me / just go to the same place my Father used to drive around in 88 / except I was able to finally see it in 89 when we would jump in the cutlass and take a drive / somewhere beyond the sea / while he was young and I felt dead inside / moments can break you / but I came into this world with a broken wing / so why would I pretend to be something I'm not? when being labeled a mistake / marked the pain within / now I'm mentally unstable / ****! / so I don't know / whether to smile / not / hold on / put a mask on / dont cry yet / if you wanna find me don't go to my block / maybe you'll find me or maybe you won't but / I'll finally be free from all these thoughts / wish I was untouchable / molested / a 36yr old man who's been treated like dirt / and these demons inside won't let go / until I let go / whether it's a bullet / so where's my ammo?! / whether it's a blade / where do I cut though?! / I don't have 13 reasons why / I just have 1 and that's you!