I would've put you through hell.
testing you, trying to get to trust you again
I would've been the worst
because I resent you so much, as much as I love you
and in my mind set, I wanted you to pay for what you did
wrong! I know! but I can't help it
so go, leave me, i don't wanna go through this

if you go through barathrum and survive ,then what?
and for how long? and how am I gonna feel after?
just leave
because I despise you so much, as much as I want to go through the trans-siberian railway with you
As much as I once hopped to wed you
at small remote chapel by the black sea

And I hate wasting time and "what if's" you know that
I wish we could get better faster
but every time I try, I see those photos in my head
and I read those texts again
and think, how could she? liar! liar! liar!
this is wrong, that is evil.
burn witch, burn

So be on your way, this is not me, all this wicked thoughts
go, get better, hurry up cause I won't be waiting
I will not waste time waiting