I can't keep holding on to you
I can't keep deceiving myself
How desperately I wish we still could be
Time is passing.
I never imagined a life without you
But you discarded me
And then siphoned through the rubble.
You brushed me off
But I'm still *****.
I never really cleaned myself off
I never wanted to wash away your scent
That lingered on my skin.
Time is passing.
I've clung to every part of you that remains
I can't move on when I know that you still love me,
Want me,
When you still give me any semblance of hope.
But I can't let go of the world I knew
It was so beautiful.
It's like fighting gravity
You can't fight love.
And so I'll suffer.
Always longing,
Never whole.