i saw myself for the first time in the past between cold coffee and flowerbeds of selfishness my life is a sailboat, burn marks on the wood grease lights and deer skulls as reminders an everlasting soliloquy of the waves speaking truth shorelines and arrowheads from lost tribes i remember the mosquito bites on your legs orange peels in your backseat where my heart used to be turn up the radio baby, cause i just can't hear the silence between us anymore, anymore than i could take your eyes hiding from mine anymore hate i've caused you? pull it back up if it's healing i'll take it all to see you with a dry face your smile is relief like knees off rice, feet off coal my name without the man i've been trying to find a staircase with each step towards your parents "nice to meet you"