Days seem to pass ever so slowly,
with no beginning, nor end;
constantly lost in my own pain,
with no direction, no guidance,
no happy ending in sight.
Nothing to look forward to,
that I may cherish as my own.

Just knowing in my core,
that I must try to find
a new beginning -
one that does not include
you as my lover,
my confidant,
and most importantly,
my best friend.  

With this acknowledgement,
I am deeply saddened,
because my heart wants,
and desires, you more than ever.
My heart yearns for you
to know everything
that one needs to know about me;
wanting to share the rest of our days
growing old together.  

Saying our final goodbyes
to each other
has now become necessary
to put the pain of
our demise behind me.
Now more than ever,
I realize this new beginning
is a way for me
to embrace the days
that lie before me.

Days filled with hope, and joy,
instead of the pain, and sadness,
that always awaited me.  
Knowing that I am needed,
and wanted, by others,
will be the new beginning
that allows me
to become the person
I used to be -
one that gives me faith
that all that has happened,
was a way to show me that
much better things
lie in wait for me.  

Vicki A. Zinn
2009