an infectious cheer chokes me.
drives hard the pulse of this moment
this search for a way of telling you
something more than i can see or hear
and still gift understanding.
to commune deeply
to be seeming
parts briefly
realized and fulfilled
until we part
still reach me
Alone within this palace again
and savoring every short but holy breath i take in
every nerve bending current afforded to tell me
I'm alive.
HELLO!
I'M ALIVE!
We ARE ALIVE!!!
Shifting through the lonesome call
of this connected-ness
into the weightless fall.
Letting go of this attentive quality we've cultivated  here
stretched, and named it remembrance.
remnants saved for saving who we used to be
inside of what we've become.
a stretch of becoming.
an instant succumbing
to the unknown.
thriving on the thin edge of mystery.
this unfathomable awe in beauty
that we can actually see
dissolve this separation and BE
Blissfully fully aware
of the universal seeds
spun within us.
that i imagine must
reach far beyond the veils ive not lifted.
Somewhere so far beyond that it seemed I missed it.
Crying in a joyous recognition
of this flowing
instantly knowing
that i kissed it
and meant it.
held tight and gripped it
saw the truth in its
temporal dress
and slipped it
off and laid her bare
as he never flinched
just stood there before me
asking if i'm smart enough to ask
because they had stored the
answers to everything.
"you have the key," he told me
"but the door is so well hidden that you'll never find it"
then she took my head in her chest like she was pointing the way
and said, "unless you do."