I can’t say when it started, me grabbing on to every precious moment while life taunts me like a ticking clock counting down the seconds until my heart shatters into pieces.
It became more than a hobby or a habit, it became an obsession.
Still as a stone, not breathing, I can spend hours upon hours rewatching and remembering what I would never let myself forget.
It’s both a blessing and a curse; struck dumb watching pictures and fragments dance in my mind's eye, the only things moving are my lips that smile and the tear that runs down my cheek.
From the vast expanse that is my mind, new ideas and new thoughts come to light, things I've never thought of before, never realized.
Fragments of a shattered poem that will be sung as a lullaby in a hundred years, remembered by those who thought they forgot.
Yet I lay here, and remember.
The white walls tell their own stories and are pressing in, but the floor beneath my back is keeping me grounded, keeping me sane.
My mind will continue to spin its tales until I'm lost in them from now until forever.
The end result is still the same.
No matter how long, how hard you hold on, there will always come a time for it to go, whatever it is.
You will still hold on until you can't any longer, until all you have left is the bittersweet memories and the pictures left in dusty frames.