"Spring drifts into me again tonight, the lush blossoms skate up my spine by the dance hall, I'm on my second beer & I'm all nerves."
means
I am a wreck, again. Half of me stumbled & fell for her weeks ago, & half of me is a ticker tape repeating what she told me: This is right now This is only now This is nothing else This can never be anything else.
Out at the bar I meet Sarah the bartender - born the day before me, small tattoos across her arms & going to Paris soon - when those two halves collide, thoughts get messy, & I am churning to pieces here in the warm air.
I am available to anyone who claims me. Until then, I am something else - something less than enough & this eats at me like an acid.
and
"Even the air is asleep. It's one a.m., I threaten the quiet walls with little music that I send towards Ireland. My heart is too shy for night games."
means
I get home late. My thoughts divide immediately - between the faraway girl across the sea who speaks like a shy dream - and something else, something desperate. I am too sensitive for the rough ******* madness of love, but I can't stand solitude, either. The faraway girl is right about me.