So I have this boy that I like
He really likes me too,
He's nice and funny
But yet I feel
Worse than ever
I want to change

I think my brain is going insane
He says he wants to help
But he doesn't understand
My constant pain
Turmoil
Regret

He doesn't see the sadness behind my eyes
Or hear the tremor in my voice
But I don't blame him,
I'm the one who hides it,
The one who Can't explain the hate
The disgust
The disappoint
I have for myself

The **** I keep bottled up because
Regular people will never understand,
I want to scream until no sound escapes
Cry until my eyes dry out,
I have all this emotion and yet
No screams burst
No tears shed

He doesn't deserve this
He should have someone better

I have so much I want to spill on this page
But my mind can't catch up with itself
I'm a jumbled mess
I can't form the words

I wish I could tell you all this, but I can't
So I'll write it here in Hope that it will ease my tired soul