So I did,
exactly what I told you not to do.
Except in a different way.
Fuck.
And now that I want to go back,
what I really want to do is to go forward.
Because while people have taught me many things
I have taught myself that things will be okay
And its not okay that I'm looking for.
But I guess it will work for now.
I'll bury that part.
In a chest, in a dungeon, in an abandoned castle.
In an abandoned world.
Guarded by a patient dragon.
I'll hide the key to the chest in one part of my mind.
And a map to the castle in another.
Or maybe I will trick myself
and hide it in my heart instead.
I will never know what web of coincidences have brought me to this point.
I only know the decisions I have made.
I don't know these words,
are they even mine.
They were here before anyone was born.
That's all I remember.