Thanks for always being there,
And giving me advice,
kissing me, and healing me
When my heart was solid ice.

I knew you must have thought
I was using you for ***,
But you always stuck around,
Gentle kisses on my neck.

When I look back in time
And see the things you did,
I realize how severely
You wanted to be more than friends.

You’d be there to console me
At any moment’s notice.
You tried to keep me calm
When my girlfriend got suspicious.

We had to keep it secret
So I pretended you were nothing.
I felt guilty being near you
But your presence was a blessing.

You gave me confidence and clarity,
Helped me see past my demons.
Even though I wronged you,
You saw me as a decent human.

The things that I was doing.
Were kinda ****** up,
So why’d you go along with it
And insist that we hook up?

Was it because you loved me?
Why didn’t you tell the truth?
Maybe I would have ended things
With the girl that wasn’t you.

Everything was convoluted.
The details left me confused.
It was bad but also good.
I felt like I had nobody else.

Despite the immorality,
Of the decisions that I made,
You never even judged me,
Just played along in my game.

I was incredibly stupid.
What were you blinded by?
My charming personality
Or my blatant and obvious lies?

I’m sorry for everything,
And I’m sure you probably knew.
It was all because I’m insecure and
I needed someone like you.

I hope you know I’m sorry,
That I wouldn’t hurt you again.
Thanks for the late night conversations.
Thanks for being my best friend.