No Time machine
Can save me now
I can forgive you
For lying and cheating
For breaking my soul
But I can’t forgive the fool
After so many chances
Who still failed, walked away
Tried so hard, just to let it go
And old friend I haven’t
Seen in years
Came to me in a nightmare
said, “what about now?’
I said 90, no 80 percent
And knew I was lying
Even in my sleep, my dream
I know that it is me
That I cannot forgive
This failure haunts me
This nightmare awakens me
To what I already know
All the worse
Is the dichotomy, presently
That if I were the fool I was then
I’d be happier now
And if I was the man I am now
I’d have been happier then
That if I were the fool I was then
I’d be happier now
And if I was the man I am now
I’d have been happier then
Can’t be who I need to be when I need to be them
Like I said
No Time machine
Can save me now
The definition of too late
Nothing I can change
Will ever make it right
Somehow nothing I do
Will take the currently
Empty, aching, singular
Point in side my mind
And fill it with you