The sadness in my life is the only thing that is consistent
I feel so alone, so lost, so sad, and so distant
I have days where I can do it, days when I’m good
but then sometimes I feel so down, so useless, misunderstood
I need another person, someone to burden with my pain
If not then I could crash, i fear I’ll drift out of Lane
And to change lanes at this speed would be such a disaster
so to avoid this I have to speed up, I have to go faster
I must brush everything under the rug, grab the wheel and keep going
I need to stay strong, let my feelings build up without showing
I see my friends laughing but I can’t even force a smile
All I want is to feel okay, just feel normal for a while
I keep chasing the feeling of feeling nothing at all
There’s no one I can turn to, no one I can call
My only relief is when I’m far too numb to feel
As I get to escape this scary world to a place that isn’t real
How can we be happy when we can’t cope, we can’t deal
What even is happiness? because it’s something I don’t feel