Time and time again I think of you.
Memories etched in the corners of my mind.
I try to run away, but the tides keep bringing me back to that smile I long for everyday.
I wanted to grow old with you; I wanted to share all the love I could.
There is no doubt I tried to love you, I tried to show you everything I could be.
That was not enough.
Not enough to keep you from running away.

Every night you creep back into my dreams, reminding me of what I desire, yet cannot have.
I see you in my dreams and wish to never wake up, just to hold you, just to feel you, just knowing you are there is all I have left.
What I would give to run my hands through your deep brown hair one more time, or to hear you say everything will be ok.
But I know that is not reality.
I wake up every morning to the cold, dark truth that awaits me.
I want nothing more than to forget you ever existed in my life, to have never fallen in love with you.
Only then would the hurt be absent from my heart.

Seeing you so happy, so free, only hurts me more.
I wanted to give you the world, and if only given the opportunity, now that I see what I lost, I would give you everything you desired.
I know you no longer love me, I know you no longer care. I just want to know what we once had was real.
One day I hope to move on, one day I hope you will be just another stepping stone.
But for now you remain a poison in my mind.
There is no doubt that I love you, and a part of me always will.