Unless I am utterly into you dwelling in your eyes every crease in your face seen the shade of your cheeks hung out there - all of me waiting to see all I can see hear all I can hear just like a cat - turning my ear in your direction leaning to drink in your sound if I am not knit and bound to you in body and mind if I do not smell every flower of you I can find nor extend and stretch my being as far as is humanly freeing
then
I have not drunk your nectar, ingested the juice of your soul and my self is not really present nor fully there in you my sweetest dear nor you in me.