It hurts so much to talk to you and know that it isn't the highlight of your day anymore.
It hurts so much to hear every goodbye, each abrupt ending just reminds me how much more I still feel for you.
I feel so idiotic feeling that I still want you.
Yet even if you did want me, as if you would have an epiphany that I am the one...it would make almost no difference in our physical lives, you are so far away.
I'm waiting for what...? Until the day I am out of school and suddenly we live together beginning the rest of our lives??
How stupid is that.
So unconceivable, definitely not reasonable.
I'm unreasonable...unreasonably in Love.



*Winter2002