It was one of the usual sleepless and trouble filled nights ; tossing and turning on my sweat drenched mattress in the room with my friend. Thinking of life and my troubles as always but there was something different this time around , instead of cracking my brains to force situations to work through, gnashing and feeling pains in my heart , I rate her was feeling self pity; I was totally broken .
I took a look back , realized how long it was that I was stuck at one place ; a very uncomfortable and pain-filled position, and looking at how far my age mates, class mates, and even those behind me have gone, and how all I wanted was to also go to school and learn, but there was just no way to , my spirit started crying and soon my physical man started too.
            I sobbed quietly but I was so broken I was going to cry out . So I ran out of the room and went out to sit by the side of the road . With heavy jaws and tears, I cried out but I couldn’t hear myself because the pain had consumed all of my energy.
    I tried to pray but I just couldn’t find the words to say. So I continued staring into the skies for a while ; gathered a little energy and the only words the cane faintly out of my mouth was “God why?” ... i repeated it over a while and I broke into tears again because all hope was lost, it was all darkness around and there wasn’t a trace of a footprint to follow .
        There was this voice deep inside of me yearning to be heard; a cry for help but it lacked the energy to catapult it. I thought of ending it all but I realized I didn’t even have the courage to . Life ; so unfair !

I needed help and I still do !!! I wish Someone hears my cry and comes to help because I’m sinking and fast