You cared too much about me
I guess that's why it hurt when you stopped
I never really needed constant reassurance,
But you told me I was beautiful anyway

I guess you don't know what you have until it's gone
right?
Because without you, I feel really cheated on my feelings
I don't know where to go
Because you were the place I went to
When I was alone
When I was breaking
You were my safe haven

I still have your number on my phone
Like a suicidal hotline to call when I'm feeling down
Like a counselor to talk to at school when anxiety kicks in
But yet I never call
Because you're too busy now
And I don't want to step on your life

Yes, it hurts you're gone away
It hurts that I'm a selfish person and forgot you have a life
It hurts that I forgot that a lot of people look to you the same way in the same time
But at one point, you only had time for me
Now our time, is their time
I still feel cheated

But you aren't 911
You aren't promised to always show up when I need help
You aren't my guardian angel
It's not your responsibility to watch over me
It just hurts that you did anyway

You cared too much about me
You loved me too much, even though you never said it
You showed it
And it still hurts
But am I brokenhearted?

I don't know.
You were never mine.