exhaust’d thru months of stress’d quandaries. have clear’d the worst. and i ripped through older pages, stealing the words that sound’d best. the only ones able to fluidly patch fragments. brake. been a long couple day(s); singular, i guess. and the sassy black chick, she doesn’t give a ****. never did. and friend is asking why, asking questions of the sky. - what if what’s complicated is so because we never let it be easy? infectious thoughts of what to do to complicate, or of how we might proliferate. and ringing: - why not just be easy? and ringing: - you’re just going to have to stop having fun for a while. and ringing: - i mean, not quit, but ease up. don’t spend your money. knowing is ninety-percent of the problem with stubbornness. and remem- bering when first told to get on with it – to let go – the other ten-percent. and being one day closer – to be one minute closer – brings restlessness. and i lay my head to rest, if only to pass time as lids squeeze light from eyes. and thoughts, peaceful a moment prior, begin to rage. to thrash and stomp. to draw from dead qualms and questions. and past turbulences become reali- gn’d. yet, most were left behind or under the Pinelawn. something missing, memories of how her **** were like tiger claws. brake. get on with it. and the vessels of my eye throb in ticks. forcing metronome. and i count the seconds, the seconds on minutes on hours on eternity. and if i were here – if i were awake – when the sun came ‘round, then perhaps the metro- nomes tick would cease. or, let it go, get on with the passing of time. getting on with it, to force the dawn sun to rise of me.