There are people all around me
But I face the wall
Dying and yet failing to be free from it all
I can hear them just outside
Their voices fade like my eyesight has
They fade like everything I used to have
I know how to let go better than anyone
I let go better than a man
I let go like I'm damned
I let go like I'm meant for pain
I let go like rain
I let go like I'm him
He can think he's better at losing things
But I know the greatest loss
I know bigger holes in my heart
I know deeper cuts
And horrible luck
And how to get away with the bad stuff
I know how to make myself starve
How to make myself bleed
And dress up like a perfect figurine
I know how to make sadness look pretty
I know how to make it look clean
So you cannot tell the difference
I let go of everything I could be
What he could have let me mean
I let go better than he
I let go of me
I let go of sleep
I let go of all of my dreams
I know how to leave
I know how to do it clean
I make sadness look pretty
I know how to leave
I know how to bleed
And make myself look pretty