Glimpses of your face keep
Weighing down my thoughts
Of forgetting you
They have turned into an impossibility.

Strange inclinations of remembering your name
Fester vehemently,
Every second of each day
I am simply appalled, entirely perplexed,
Who knew silences entailed such unendurable chaos?

Silences speak a strange language.
Learning how to speak them must truly be an art.
But the silence which brought us together
Shall only tear us apart.

I know not why I feel
The need to shatter its symphony
By pouring out these frivolous words.
I surrendered rationality long ago–
Along with categorical and critical thought–
Never yielding,
Never satiating–

My mind was always estranged.
Each book read out
My estrangement from this world.
My estrangement was inescapable,
So instead I tried escaping lucidity
By calling upon my distractions.
They came to rescue me,
They did try to make me forget,
But I was unaware of what I was forgetting.

Vividly, will I remember
Waiting for you.
Waiting for truth,
Waiting eternally.

Every promise contains a betrayal.
So I await,
Most afraid
Of being betrayed,
Helplessly perplexed,
Constantly questioning.
Can I turn off all the lights
Once and for all?
Can I plunge into a well of darkness?

My thoughts turn sour
In the bleakness of the air,
And winds that push me
Tell me to start over again.
But there can be no start
For the unfinished and undone.
Only an endless waiting
For you,
Forever,
With no end.