Scratches & scars you gave me that lie beneath my skin what you stole from me, that young scared girl of five, 8 years then I let it go on, fighting between sheets, drowning, muttering about the shapes on the wall to you back aches & visits to the hospitals in my head. At eleven I was trapped, while again and again it happened mummy at the store mummy at work mummy down the hall cleaning the stove, the dishes while you choked me with the fear of family members with eyes gouged out to keep me yours. At twelve I fought back, told the woman scared shitless of your skeleton while the people in dusty suits & squeaky shoes stood in empty rooms calling my mother a liar. At thirteen they decided to stuff me in a room with you for over an hour, twice, while women hungry for my fear sat me in a soggy blue chair seven feet from you, they used big words that I had always known to describe my symptoms of 'a small, thirteen year old only trying to please her mother' while you crossed your legs, mannerisms I adopted at eight fighting to break through my facade, with hands folded in your lap, and echoed the lies my mama told me you had spat in court to those hollow lawyers. they all believed me a liar and because I waited, I could save no other.