You always tell me I'm a good writer but I can't even come up with the right words anymore. I've written this sentence six times already and I still can't get myself to be certain that this should even be here. I guess this is me not knowing how to do simple things. I finally took your advice and decided to just write to you, because we can't even see eye to eye anymore. You know most of the times when I start a sentence and tell you nevermind mid sentence it's really only because I think you're going to think what I'm saying is stupid. It's really horrible sometimes because I used to think that you loved everything that came out of my **** mouth but that's not the case anymore. You know it's hard to explain to someone the love you once had no longer feels the same. But I just keep telling myself that too much has happened for things to always be the same. I also have to keep telling myself that because it's better than me thinking that our love diminished. I've always been a very stubborn person and maybe even a little selfish but I'm sorry for that always. I just can't wear my heart on my sleeve anymore. I'm just tired of feeling so broken because of it. I'm sorry but this might just be a bunch of pointless rambles and I'll forgive you if you just stop reading. (My words aren't that important anyways.) I have a bad habit of not letting good things in and I have a bad habit of not letting the bad things go.