I was there when she turned her back
shook her head and blew her breath at me.
i was there when she talked to me
when she was so ****** wasted,
she wanted me.
I was there when she smiled and laughed,
when she cried, shouted and groaned,
I was there thru the tea being made,
thru the potatoes being peeled
and the tattoos we thought we'd get,
as a symbol of love.
I was there when she came to me in the dark night
I was there when she thought i was nothing,
when she played her guitar
and played the one song i loved
over, and over, and over.
I was there when she held my hand
in the silence i was there
I was there at the bottom of the garden
behind the tree, by the pond
waiting for her.
I was there.
I was there when she asked to meet me 2 hours away,
when she laid next to me naked
and i never made a move because she didn't move me that way
I was there when she asked me to dance
yet she couldn't at all.
I was there when she wore my hat
played a song of a thousand clowns
where she wore a multiple of colours
and the girl never left my side.
I was there when the dad left,
when the baby cried
when the mother ******* and the eyeliner bled.
I was always there
never not
when the time was too hard, too long, too weak.
I felt long and hard
and it was still there
every single time i felt it.
I was there
never not
just be she said, just be
let it lie,
but i was always awake