I am
Too much of a dreamer
Not enough of a thinker
An avid drinker
For I never know where to turn
When something goes wrong

I am
a loner
Though emotionally codependent
Because of my lack of confidence
And experience
I am influenced
And live in hopelessness
Of this I have evidence

I am
Backwards
For being forwards is too complicated
Those vibes I have negated
For I need someone to keep me sated
In the midst of all the hatred

I am
Broken down
Tossed around
Mercilessly drowned in a pool of my own sorrow
Thoughts of tomorrow
Haunt me
May I please borrow
your eyes
So I can be the strong woman
Everyone tells me they see

For I feel I am
Just a kid in the middle of a mess
Trying to clean up after myself
And my tirades of recklessness
But getting stuck
Cause I can't even handle the weight of the broom

I am lonely
For I'm alone
In the middle of the ashes
Of the burning building
I once called home