Sometimes I feel like time stops, and the only indication of me not being dead is my pounding heart, that is in rhythm with the party lights. I walk out to the rain, no thoughts at all - because understating is overrated. I look at the grey clouds, beneath them I can only see an endless enigma. The rain falls down the freckles on my nose, down my eyes and then my lips, like salty tears that build a path from pain to love. I look at the moon and find no end to its gaze - and then I come alive.