My judgement is cloudy , my thoughts are not letting me sleep soundly. My fears are catching up to me, trust has been something I don't give out so easy. My days are darker and my nights are a lot longer, all the things i have been through have broken me and I'm struggling at becoming any stronger. Inside I'm screaming, inside I am barely breathing. I put a smile on my face and I try to hold it together, but I feel so alone waiting for it to get better. Only trying to believe what I feel and what I see, grasping onto what's left of my reality.  Sometimes the happiest ones don't seem happy at all, even the strongest one have times that they fall.