When I lay on my bed
Everything goes dark
It's like my bed is ******* me into the deep abyss
Ahhhh, my soul trembles
Pathetic, I say
The sleepiness that I have leaves me as soon as I try to sleep
One by one the mistakes in my past haunt me
Slowly brute and cruel thoughts violate me
This hopelessness and deep sadness I feel
When will it end?
When will it free me from its terror
When will I sleep peacefully with a smile on my face, a carefree thought, and an untroubled soul?
When will it stop playing with me? When my heart is shattered to a million pieces? no? When my soul is black?
Will it claim my life?  Like a thief in the night?
I hope not.