forgot how to love
remembered i never have

painted pictures line these walls
i see your smile in his, i see your eyes in hers

i scratch this kitchen table with my nails
i trace the lines of old age and memories

i wait up for you
but the back door stays locked

and the porch light remains off

ive fought the whole world to be yours

i see myself in the hallway
she's shaking her head

she's telling me i told you so

years and years it may take,
but he will leave

they always do