I don't know how you deal
Or even feel about your loss,
I don't know what to say to you
Although I understand the cost.

You ask me how I dealt with it
I'm not sure I ever did,
I locked it away within my heart
And prayed it would stay hid.

Sometimes, not very often
I feel emotions weight,
It reaches up from deep within
And causes me to quake.

A field of dread flows over me
Till I can't think straight at all,
My whole world seems to fall apart
As my body curls into a ball.

Maybe I  do need help with the grief
But I wonder who would know how,
If they haven't been through the same as me
How could they know, how I feel now.

So how do I handle the loss
I wrap it so deep inside,
And I pray that it does stay hidden
Until it's my turn to die.