I stood atop the castle
My heart locked inside
I unrelenting fought
to guard it’s sensitive skin
You knocked three times
I wouldn’t let you in
Nor would I let you leave

You reasoned with me
Compromising
Asking one way or another
I kept the bridge pulled
High over the moat

You yelled for me
Beating the words into my head
I begged you come to bed
I sewed sheets from my insecurities
Don’t you want to read them all?
If I share them and they dance across
my wine stained breath
Won’t you understand?

Or is it me who is not understanding...

Closed door
You offered comfort that you’d come back
Then I demanded you go home
Then I demanded you stay

The black curtains drawn
behind my eyes

You kissed my forehead goodbye
and left
and I’m left
In garments of guilt

You said don’t apologize
It is forgiven
Just allow me time away

I’m afraid you’ll stay away

In my castle my heart beats
Anxiously
Anxiously
Anxiously

I must open the door
Let down the bridge

For only he can decide
If he shall stay or go

I put down the crown
I can not control you