I used to have a lot of friends.

Used to.

They're still there just not the same.

Everyone thinks Im so confident and cocky.

That;s *******.

I've always felt alone.

Even amongst my closest friends.

Who ,of course all hate me.

Not that you could tell.

But i just play pretend .

Dance along.

Play the fool.

I hate the expression "tears of a clown".

Which is ironic, i suppose.

But no matter what i cant escape.

What is it about me that prefers to be hated than ignored.

I know who i am.

I know people don't like him.

Count me amongst you.

Please just count me.

Please.

I think I'll fade away else.

Dont let me be alone.

I cant do that.