That day will forever be burned into my brain. That was the day I was ****** assaulted. Me and my parents had complete faith in this organization. I have never trusted since that day. I hate him. I hate him with every fiber of my being. But hate wont change what he did. Hate wont change the fact he killed himself that January. Some how a dead man’s words hold more merit then the poor kid who’s life he changed forever. I hate you. If you were still alive I would have killed you myself. You have ruined so many relationships with my friends and family. You are the reason I can never truly open up to those who are always there for me. You are the reason I went through years of therapy that did not do jack **** to help me. You are the reason I tried to **** myself the first and third time. You are the reason I feel like i am not worth loving. *******. ******* and the false images people still have of you. The only reason I have not outed you is because people need to see you as some kind of ******* hero. I will not do that to them. I will not hurt people in anyway by letting them know how you hurt me. *******.