You love someone else it is clear to see. I can tell that you don't really want to be with me.
I see right through you. I know who he is. You lie and take cover to "protect" us from this.
You say you need time to find the real "me". When really there is somewhere else that you would like to be.
He has opened a door but and it is hard to see that really it is a cage made just for you. Locked out is your husband wishing for help and very afraid of the war to be waged.
I will not fight your war. You and your lover are free. I wait for a time when I can be me.