No one can hurt you like the one you've cared  for the most.

They told me I'd be foolish to let this fool get a chance to hurt me again.
But I happily stood to take a toast.

Ready to commit and leave all fear and regrets,
But there is nothing worse than for a man to feel the fear of being close.

Hold on, here comes that pain in my chest.
It's the same one I felt months ago.
How dare he leave me high dry and to be ghost.

But I digress. . .
here comes the pain in my chest.
It's left a hole that can't seem to be closed.
I'm drowning in my own clothes, I feel a mess.
I am a mess.
But I digress.

There's a pain in my chest.
And I can tell its decided to dwell here for a while.
I force every smile.
If I do. .
And you'd expect me to be through but I haven't even touched that phase quite yet.
My hearts in debt.
And until this bill is paid off,
Im restrained from taking my next step.

But this bill I accept. . .
I wrote the checks!
I bent over backwards and strained my neck.
I placed myself here.
Yet I don't feel an ounce of regret.

I'm hurt. I may be perfectly placed on the outside.
But burnt down inside.
But with every jump I took through each hurdle I faced.
It was evident that I tried.
And it felt so **** good.

Regardless these feelings shall forever leave their mark.
Even if we never do.
And even when this ache is absent,
We can never be "overdue".