She must be beautiful,   I ask myself as I drown in the image of you
She must be strong and kind, I wonder as I pick my broken pieces off the floor.
She must be more, than the thoughts I have of me
I cannot change the reality that we have never met and yet
I wonder if you would remember me or if I would have the courage to forget.  
You see I have to let you go because you do not belong to me.
even though in a milky way our souls have been so intertwined so.
that I swear I can feel you breathe, thousands of miles away from me
My journey cannot include you,   I tell my self a matter of fact.

To try distract from this aching inside my bones.
Knowing that you love deeply and truly  
knowing you are calling another home
Knowing that once again.
I am all alone.

This silence has to become my friend.  
I have to stare into the dark abyss and introduce myself

Hi.... I’m Bonni ...
It echoes back in questions  

as I realize that I do not know who I am apart from expectations, stereotypical boxes and other peoples plans.
It echoes back disappointment and heartache that I know and understand.
  
This love journey is not you walk
its me, myself and I