I have felt that feeling again tonight Saw the eyes of my father in my friend Heard the four Most evil words from a trust, I felt sure in βIf You love meβ¦ there is in it a gamble not worth pursuing
it is to tread waters of solid friendship how it bends for one need not another I do not want to bend Nor can I any further The arch in my back holds a boulder on a twig In the mud over a racing river
are the tears of now worth it Do I deserve this? For proving my worth Or are they wrong for testing it? I wish she knew of my heart ache Of all my weakest moments But most of these days those moments belong to her
To what do you owe your savior? Did they really save you? Or are you now in a new kind of madness Trapped in the same game but a different classroom Never learning how to ask for an exit
Ill give you a hint They never built a savior or an exit You are your own key And prison
Now I sit in my sanctuary Undreaming dreams and unfriending thieves That I no longer wish for Away from familiar
I see that I am always the same Will always be the same Just less and less Hopeless Less of service Less capable of letting you behold it
My key My prison You may no longer be a hold of it
I know a certain kind of sadness That does not want to wallow It nurses your bruised frame And lets you release Whatever you found to shackle yourself with