Every night I fight the feeling of sleep For when that beast begins to creep into my body I alarm myself with a continuous beep A siren. A shock. Caffeine. Anything to prevent a leap Inside the abyss of my mind I find many things askew there is nothing I can construe My dreams leave me shaking and begging for awakening each one mars my sanity as I writhe in agony You see every night for almost a year now I die in my dreams They are quite vivid deaths some I can even feel. I've been stabbed and beaten with knives and tire irons Shot dissected crushed and impaled by metal beams I've been skinned alive set on fire murdered several times eaten alive by spiders and beasts. Some of which too horrific to describe All I can do is fight in vain and be an unwilling audience to my own demise
There is some kind of psychological aspect to this I have yet to understand
I always end these hellish nightmares the same way screaming at myself to wake up and hopefully I do. I am haunted by something I do not understand I know this because I can feel knocking on my soul's foyer