4. I remembered the world For what it seemed For what it was. I just remembered being. And I remembered everything. From holding my mom’s shivering hands To watching my grandma descend from this world From the sun rays that shined upon the beach To the moon that cowered behind the buildings. It all seemed like a distant dream A dream worth seeing
6. The loss of our home A simple one story with three bedrooms and one bathroom, A simple home in a simple neighborhood. Gone, In an instant. Welcome to the apartment story Population: The Diaz. With only one friend made I wonder how much of my sixth year of living do I remember. That I can ever recall
7. Packed bags Packed moving truck. Off to the North for this So Cal Babe Because maybe just maybe my mom doesn’t have a pathetic excuse for a family Maybe they’ll come to see her. Or maybe we’ll be ignored ****** like **** that doesn’t belong in a sea of flowers ****** like sailors out in horrendous weathers. How is it that my mother was the only golden child out of these coal filled children?
8. A new life A new home Can’t believe I made any friends Can’t believe I still hold onto one. Can’t believe I fell for the other one.
11. From apartments to townhouses Just down the street Further and further away from him A start of a whole new chapter I furthered myself from religion Furthered myself from faith I just kept on living on Didn’t think too much of anything
14. A new chapter starts again While everyone moves on from childish games Playing in the big league While getting lost in the High School hallways I remained true to myself True to the inner me I had forgotten what it was like to be an embarrassment Forgotten what it was like to not be me. I continued my childish acts And continued on this path I set for myself I looked towards writing Connected with the dead. I found my passion in words And my words in worlds And even my worlds in dreams I no longer knew what everything seemed to be.
16. I dreamt of him Dreamt of us I fell in love with those dreams Fell in love with him Or perhaps I’m just low balling it And just stuck with the whole dream thing Stuck with the whole dreaming someone means they were always thinking of you Because perhaps I wanted to believe deep down inside his mind He always had thoughts of me
17. Graduated with no honors Don’t know where life will take me Don’t know what to do All I know is My pathetic thoughts, imagination, and stupidity let someone else take him away I lost sight of where I wanted to be Lost sight of he who belonged in my dreams Reality took over me And dreaming was the only thing that let me be.
18. Still alive but I’m barely breathing Still alive but I’m losing grip on everything Still trying to survive Still trying to go on I’m just aging day by day While I watch the leaves float on by I watch the parts of my life flutter away. I want to start over again I want to wake up when I was 4 Restart life all over again With the knowledge that had been I want to change what I’ve done Re mold myself to a better person But wishes don’t happen like that Got to work with what I have And mold a better tomorrow From the crummier today’s. But on the bright side,* With too much philosophy on my mind Sometimes I’m kind of excited where my life will be.