Today I had a tough day
A day I can’t decide how I feel
A day I was once looking forward to

Today I am nervous
Nervous that you read my poem
Nervous about how you felt if you did

Today I tried to hide
Hide from you finding out the truth
Hiding the way you make my cheeks hurt from smiling

Today my body ached
My fingers tingled with the touch of your cold hands
My stomach felt odd for I know was butterflies

Today I lied
I lied about my feelings
I lied about my answers

Today I was jealous
Jealous of your friendships
Jealous of how you don’t feel the way I feel?

Today I am sorry
Sorry for bothering you
Sorry for feeling and acting the way I do when around you

Today I wish I wasn’t me